1:1 #seflcare regimes
Self-care is an aesthetic and emotional practice. It is ought to be experienced in
a square 1:1 format >> [instagrammable] self-care is social capital.
1:1 self-care aims to convey a story of self-worth & one's socio-economic value.
It serves as evidence of one's hard work.
it validates one's rest & her existence in the neoliberal realm.
invisibly-disabled bodies are underserving bodies. invisibly-disabled bodies are not meant to be rest connoisseurs but proactive neoliberal-subjects in pursuit of [digitally visible] self-improvement. their value is co- contructed within the 1:1 self-care regimes. invisibly-disabled bodies have no choice but to turn to invisible labour (creating 1:1 content) to create the best versions of themselves to be seen as deserving bodies.
what is this proposal about?
 instagramble selfcare;  neoliberal feminism;  invisible disabilities - these are the key topics of my proposal. As an invisible disability warrior, I have spent years defining and re-defining my value while scrolling through #selfcare content. Am I trying hard enough? How does my 1:1 content affect the way I'm being seen by others? I'm a bad disabled-neoliberal- subject (e.g., lazy attention-seeker, hysterical fake ), or am I a good-neoliberal- disabled subject (e.g.,keen to self-improve, ambitious, proactive).
I see the residency as an opportunity to explore these questions. I'd like to reflect on the online narratives on rest and #selfcare and artistically frame them within the context of invisible disabilities. Through the project, I'd like to examine my own understanding of 1:1 self-care and the broader view of self-care within the invisibly dsiabled communities.
context & relevance
I define #selfcare as a socio-digital construct. Its value is affected by intersectional factors, one of which is a disability. The value and meaning of self-care are co-constructed by 1:1 scrollers/viewers/users. To ensure that my self-care (and therefore rest) is socially acceptable. An in need of a break room? As an invisibly diabled person, do I actually deserve to rest? If so, what should meaningful rest and self-care look like?
In line with the call I'm interested in the following questions:
What happens to us when we close the tabs in our heads? What do breaks in the digital world look like? What qualities must a break display in order to be more than a mere charging station in the capitalist cycle of exploitation, and is this even possible?
The problem of 1:1 instagrammable self-care is something I've been thinking about for a while. I have never had enough [resting] time to explore or challenge it. The residency would allow me to do just that.
My intention is to take time to experiment with mixed-media sculpture, video, collage art, and net art to create some sort of mockery of how self-care has been turned into a neoliberal process of self-investment. In this proposal, you can see drafts of some of my works related to the topics of the instagrammable 1:1 self-care content, neoliberal feminism, and invisible disability.
Will I be able to create a utopian vision of restful futures? Not sure [actually I don't think I will].
My intention is to draw attention to the problem and amplify the voices of those affected by it - meaning the invisible-disability-online-communities.
who am I?
I'm HYSTERA (aka dr alicja pawluczuk). I'm an invisiblly disabled artivist (with a broken hystera + Greek for uterus). I grew up in Eastern Europe where rest=sin & where an illness makes you less of a human (or a neoliberalised human-machine, maybe?). I'm a digital tech researcher & an educator too.