1:1 #seflcare regimes 

Self-care is an aesthetic and emotional practice. It is ought to be experienced in

a square 1:1 format >> [instagrammable] self-care is social capital.


1:1 self-care aims to convey a story of self-worth & one's socio-economic value.

It serves as evidence of one's hard work.

it validates one's rest & her existence in the neoliberal realm.




invisibly-disabled bodies are underserving bodies. invisibly-disabled bodies are not  meant to be rest connoisseurs but proactive  neoliberal-subjects in pursuit of [digitally  visible] self-improvement. their value is co- contructed within the 1:1 self-care regimes. invisibly-disabled bodies   have no choice but to turn to invisible labour (creating 1:1 content) to create the best versions of themselves to be seen as deserving bodies.







what is this proposal about? 

[1] instagramble selfcare; [2] neoliberal feminism; [3] invisible disabilities - these are the key topics of my proposal. As an invisible disability warrior, I have spent years defining and re-defining my  value while scrolling through #selfcare content. Am I trying hard enough? How does my 1:1 content affect the way I'm being seen by others? I'm a bad disabled-neoliberal- subject (e.g., lazy attention-seeker,  hysterical fake ), or am I a good-neoliberal- disabled subject (e.g.,keen to self-improve, ambitious, proactive).

I see the residency as an opportunity to explore these questions. I'd like to reflect on the online narratives on rest and #selfcare and artistically frame them within the context of invisible disabilities. Through the project, I'd like to examine my own understanding of 1:1 self-care and the broader view of self-care within the invisibly dsiabled communities. 






context & relevance 

I define #selfcare as a socio-digital construct. Its value is affected by intersectional factors, one of which is a disability. The value and meaning of self-care are co-constructed by 1:1 scrollers/viewers/users. To ensure that my self-care (and therefore rest) is socially acceptable.  An in need of a break room? As an invisibly diabled person, do I actually deserve to rest? If so, what should meaningful rest and self-care look like? 

In line with the call I'm interested in the following questions:


What happens to us when we close the tabs in our heads? What do breaks in the digital world look like? What qualities must a break display in order to be more than a mere charging station in the capitalist cycle of exploitation, and is this even possible?







The problem of 1:1 instagrammable self-care is something I've been thinking about for a while. I have never had enough [resting] time to explore or challenge it. The residency would allow me to do just that. 

My intention is to take time to experiment with mixed-media sculpture, video, collage art, and net art to create some sort of mockery of how self-care has been turned into a neoliberal process of self-investment. In this proposal, you can see drafts of some of my works related to the topics of the instagrammable 1:1 self-care content, neoliberal feminism, and invisible disability.


Will I be able to create a utopian vision of restful futures? Not sure [actually I don't think I will].

My intention is to draw attention to the problem and amplify the voices of those affected by it - meaning the invisible-disability-online-communities.

Copy of 43 #seflcare regimes invisible labour & invisible disabilities (Instagram Post)(1)







who am I?

I'm HYSTERA (aka dr alicja pawluczuk). I'm an invisiblly disabled artivist (with a broken hystera + Greek for uterus). I grew up in Eastern Europe where rest=sin & where an illness makes you less of a human (or a neoliberalised human-machine, maybe?). I'm a digital tech researcher & an educator too.




incomplete sketched ideas
for the 

project's artworks